One
of the most painful things about being kicked out of all my
extracurricular activities but is no longer welcome to do the morning
announcements. I liked the attention I got from doing the
announcements, I thought that I was a pretty funny guy and that
people enjoyed my off beat and quirky brand of hijinks. I even had
brainwashed myself into thinking that I was somewhat of a school
touchstone and treasure. I think what hurt the most was finding out
that nobody even noticed that I was not on anymore. I would mention
that I had been kicked off and they would suddenly realize that I had
been on the announcements. I had been off among and nobody had even
cared . It popped my little fantasy that I had in my mind of the
pivotal nature of ,my role in the school's daily routine and it
turned out everyone just tuned me out and waited for it to be over. I
regretted all of the effort, planning and anxiety about doing well
and being funny that went into producing good show and felt a little
hollow. I was hoping for popular revolt and the students to demand
that I be reinstated - what I got was crickets. Not exactly be
crumbled feet of Ozymandias it for a 17-year-old it was close enough.
At that rate I might find out that my angsty teen poetry was banal
and not interesting to anybody who didn't have some interest in not
insulting me personally.
